Friday, April 16, 2010
ever since the start of school, 2010 has been crap!
was hoping it was going to be a good year like last year, guess not.
it just went downhill.
ways to describe this year- crap crap and crap.
maybe it will get better?
who knows.
somtimes i think im so lucky to have such awesome great friends.
but sometimes, who are my true friends?
people that used to be close to me seem to have faded away.
and im left not knowing what happened.
with questions i want to ask and answers i want to know.
it has only been a term but i feel as if ive already lost my close friends.
the ones who used to be there for me. the ones who was always there for me.
but i guess im on my own now. and i dont even know what happened.
i really want to know what i am to others.
am i just a ball that can be chucked around and only when you need me, you talk to me?
or for some, am i like a piece of clothing, once you get bored of it, you chuck it out?
funny how when my friends are upset, i try to be there for them. but who is there for me?
weird that i can spend so much time talking with you when you're upset and then you go and ignore me.
funny that you are my 'best friend' but we hardly talk.
is it cos im a failed friend?
or is it cos of you?
and please dont say things you dont mean. it gives people hope and then you go and crush that hope. it hurts.
what we could have been, 1:53 AM.
