Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Sometimes the things we are looking so hard for are just in front of our eyes but we never notice and finally when we notice it, maybe its too late.
There is always a reason as to why someone walks into our lives, but sometimes when they walk out of our lives we think, why bother coming into my life when all you do is hurt me in the end?
but, everyone who has walked into our lives and walked out of it have left heavy footprints in our hearts. Even if they have left you with a wounded heart as long as you remember the happy memories that they have left, the wound would eventually heal. (hopefully! XD)
this is like an inspiration from the poem 'footprints in the sand'
i love that poem!
'One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him,he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and hequestioned the LORD about it:
"LORD, you said that once I decided to followyou, you'd walk with me all the way.But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,there is only one set of footprints.I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."
The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child,I love you and I would never leave you.During your times of trial and suffering,when you see only one set of footprints,it was then that I carried you."
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sometimes i think to myself, why do i bother giving some people chances after chances when i know that most likely they are going to hurt me again?
is it cos i always see that glimmer of hope that they will change and understand?
but that glimmer of hope is dieing away slowly.
i want to hold onto this little glimmer of hope and hope that you will change and everything will turn back around but is this only wishful thinking that wont ever come true?
am i just wasting time and effort hoping that you will change and that everything will be ok?
will everything be ok again after what had happened?
is this a wound that can eventually heal back with time?
i look at what has happened and many questions run through my head.
sometimes i feel as if im just another piece of dirt sitting on the ground.
cos that is how u treat me at the moment.
which makes me think, why did i bother to keep on defending you and caring for you when you didnt care for me at the slightest. when everyone turned their backs on you, i stood by you and then i was stuck in the middle.
but when we had that other fight, you had never ever bothered to think how i felt and only asked us whether we had though of your perspective.
i had and that was why i defended and made up excuses for you.
but now you pretend as if i dont even exist when not long ago we were still friends and talking and mucking around.
you confuse me, a lot. makes me wonder a lot.
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today, at bball training, i took 2533 steps! XD
and suicides are that bad really.
and my dribbling has improved i think?
i love anna's furry ball! XD
ooo! after doing suicides while trying to dribble at the same time, i believe i have guns! XD
hahahh! but not as tank as polly!
polly is super tank!! she has massive guns!!!!!! but she wont flex them for me!
and polly has uber smooth arms!
as smooth as a baby's bum! XD she could do a commercial for like Johnson's baby cream or oil? and be like- it makes ure skin as smooth as my arms! XD
today at lifesaving, me and alice sat there observing other people cos we werent swimming and we realised that thea had 3 rolls of fat!! which is like worse than me!!!!!
me and alice were so surprised cos we thought she would have been like really toned with like no flab!
and alice also observed that she had muffintops!
i like eating muffins! esp choc banana ones! XD
they were so nice!
today, during tech i finished one piece of my jewellery! YAY!!
and it looks cuteee!
apparently the jewellery stand im planning to make is going to take a while to do cos its quite complex! =[
i am determined to do the stand!!
if i finish making the stand, i think it would actually turn out quite goood! =]
and dora had food tech today! cos she made peach studel, she had vanilla and chocolate ice cream with it. except she didnt like vanilla ice cream so she gave the whole scoop to me!
i forgot that she was also in my class so i shoved the whole scoop into my mouth cos i was hurrying up to my locker to get my history book. and then my tongue went numb. =='
bad idea of shoving a whole scoop of ice cream into one's mouth.
and today, i got told off my Cher for wearing my hoodie. =[
but i like my hoodie and it has north sydney girls written on it!!!
and many other people also wear it!
and its warm!
oooo. and today on the bus back home, i kept on falling off the seat and getting stuck there cos i had my back to the front and i was facing the back when im not supposed to. Thank you jess and jackie for rescuing me out of that gap! dinh just sat there laughing at me i think! HMPH! =='
and then jess and jackie and dinh all got off at longueville road and lonerated me. =[
today,when i got home i decided to make wine flavoured ice cubes!
they turned out horrible! =[
but then i tried to make coffee cos i was having a craving for coffee ice cream.
i drank half of the coffee i made and then used the other half to make ice cubes!
the coffeee wasnt too bad! and it was my first time!
except with the ice cubes, i should have made the coffee stronger so the ice cubes were more flavoured!
and im pretty sure someone has been stealing my greeen tea ice cream cos i wanted to steal some today, but there wasnt much left.
and im pretty sure that last time i stole some out, there was more in there! =='
but then again, i mite be wrong!
i want more green tea ice cream! i want green tea latte! so niceee!
anyways. this basically sums up what i want to write about.
=]
ilyy
There is always a reason as to why someone walks into our lives, but sometimes when they walk out of our lives we think, why bother coming into my life when all you do is hurt me in the end?
but, everyone who has walked into our lives and walked out of it have left heavy footprints in our hearts. Even if they have left you with a wounded heart as long as you remember the happy memories that they have left, the wound would eventually heal. (hopefully! XD)
this is like an inspiration from the poem 'footprints in the sand'
i love that poem!
'One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him,he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and hequestioned the LORD about it:
"LORD, you said that once I decided to followyou, you'd walk with me all the way.But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,there is only one set of footprints.I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."
The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child,I love you and I would never leave you.During your times of trial and suffering,when you see only one set of footprints,it was then that I carried you."
___________________________________________________________________________________
sometimes i think to myself, why do i bother giving some people chances after chances when i know that most likely they are going to hurt me again?
is it cos i always see that glimmer of hope that they will change and understand?
but that glimmer of hope is dieing away slowly.
i want to hold onto this little glimmer of hope and hope that you will change and everything will turn back around but is this only wishful thinking that wont ever come true?
am i just wasting time and effort hoping that you will change and that everything will be ok?
will everything be ok again after what had happened?
is this a wound that can eventually heal back with time?
i look at what has happened and many questions run through my head.
sometimes i feel as if im just another piece of dirt sitting on the ground.
cos that is how u treat me at the moment.
which makes me think, why did i bother to keep on defending you and caring for you when you didnt care for me at the slightest. when everyone turned their backs on you, i stood by you and then i was stuck in the middle.
but when we had that other fight, you had never ever bothered to think how i felt and only asked us whether we had though of your perspective.
i had and that was why i defended and made up excuses for you.
but now you pretend as if i dont even exist when not long ago we were still friends and talking and mucking around.
you confuse me, a lot. makes me wonder a lot.
___________________________________________________________________________________
today, at bball training, i took 2533 steps! XD
and suicides are that bad really.
and my dribbling has improved i think?
i love anna's furry ball! XD
ooo! after doing suicides while trying to dribble at the same time, i believe i have guns! XD
hahahh! but not as tank as polly!
polly is super tank!! she has massive guns!!!!!! but she wont flex them for me!
and polly has uber smooth arms!
as smooth as a baby's bum! XD she could do a commercial for like Johnson's baby cream or oil? and be like- it makes ure skin as smooth as my arms! XD
today at lifesaving, me and alice sat there observing other people cos we werent swimming and we realised that thea had 3 rolls of fat!! which is like worse than me!!!!!
me and alice were so surprised cos we thought she would have been like really toned with like no flab!
and alice also observed that she had muffintops!
i like eating muffins! esp choc banana ones! XD
they were so nice!
today, during tech i finished one piece of my jewellery! YAY!!
and it looks cuteee!
apparently the jewellery stand im planning to make is going to take a while to do cos its quite complex! =[
i am determined to do the stand!!
if i finish making the stand, i think it would actually turn out quite goood! =]
and dora had food tech today! cos she made peach studel, she had vanilla and chocolate ice cream with it. except she didnt like vanilla ice cream so she gave the whole scoop to me!
i forgot that she was also in my class so i shoved the whole scoop into my mouth cos i was hurrying up to my locker to get my history book. and then my tongue went numb. =='
bad idea of shoving a whole scoop of ice cream into one's mouth.
and today, i got told off my Cher for wearing my hoodie. =[
but i like my hoodie and it has north sydney girls written on it!!!
and many other people also wear it!
and its warm!
oooo. and today on the bus back home, i kept on falling off the seat and getting stuck there cos i had my back to the front and i was facing the back when im not supposed to. Thank you jess and jackie for rescuing me out of that gap! dinh just sat there laughing at me i think! HMPH! =='
and then jess and jackie and dinh all got off at longueville road and lonerated me. =[
today,when i got home i decided to make wine flavoured ice cubes!
they turned out horrible! =[
but then i tried to make coffee cos i was having a craving for coffee ice cream.
i drank half of the coffee i made and then used the other half to make ice cubes!
the coffeee wasnt too bad! and it was my first time!
except with the ice cubes, i should have made the coffee stronger so the ice cubes were more flavoured!
and im pretty sure someone has been stealing my greeen tea ice cream cos i wanted to steal some today, but there wasnt much left.
and im pretty sure that last time i stole some out, there was more in there! =='
but then again, i mite be wrong!
i want more green tea ice cream! i want green tea latte! so niceee!
anyways. this basically sums up what i want to write about.
=]
ilyy
what we could have been, 1:49 AM.
