Monday, January 25, 2010
am i sometimes taken for granted?
cos im starting to feel that way a lot now.
You always expect me to be there for you whenever you need someone to talk to or when you are having trouble or need help or advice or when you jsut simply want someone to talk to.
I dont mind doing that or anything.
But sometimes when i feel as if im about to break down and i need someone to talk to you are never there.
Or even when im going through a lot and i just want to talk to you.
Is that what a best friend should be like?
and sometimes you tell me about someone or anything, i dont criticise them cos you like them or watever.
but when i tell you, you are always like- hes so ugly, hes a douche, or watever.
i mean to you that may seem like it, but thats not always how i see a person.
Its ok if u say it like once of something, but everytime, you always say that.
we used to be close, i dont know what happened.
you jsut started ignoring me and i had no idea what happened.
if i had done soemthign or said something that pissed you off, you never bothered to tell me.
and another thing, there is no 10 others of you.
theres only you and jas.
and you know that.
and you can say that i dont care about you and all.
but if i didnt care about you or value our friendship i wouldnt be crying so much over it.
and let alone, trying to talk to you on msn though all i get is nothing cos you're ignoring me.
and if i didnt care about you, i wouldnt be shopping and i see soemthing that you mentioned you liked before and i would think, should i get that for her cos i remember she once said she liked stuff like that.
its funny cos it makes me think, do i ever cross your mind?
have you ever thought about me or even cared about me at the least.
and you have never told me that you didnt liek that i say that and stuff.
so how the hell am i supposed to know.
im not a person who can read your mind without you telling me what you feeel or think.
and i havent been posting things on his wall.
the last post i did was like andy pandy!
there was no i loved that text or goodnite bubbs to him.
i was swearing at him to tell him to piss off!
and i dont like him!
i know im hypocritical btu i try not to be.
but has it ever crossed your mind that you could be too.
and i havent treated you liek crap.
you have!
you have no idea how many times that ive felt like some srsly fucked up piece of crap cos of you.
ive been the one trying to save our friendship and have you tried at least once?
NO! you havent!
and i do know how feeeling unspecial to someone that you thought was one in a million.
its painful and im going through that right now!
ive always thought that we were best friends!
i even felt that i was closer to you than i was to my best friend in primary who i had known for 2 years!
and honestly, i was the only one who ever tried to resolve it and save our friendship.
and if i didnt care i wouldnt bother!
and obviously i do care and you dont!
cos im starting to feel that way a lot now.
You always expect me to be there for you whenever you need someone to talk to or when you are having trouble or need help or advice or when you jsut simply want someone to talk to.
I dont mind doing that or anything.
But sometimes when i feel as if im about to break down and i need someone to talk to you are never there.
Or even when im going through a lot and i just want to talk to you.
Is that what a best friend should be like?
and sometimes you tell me about someone or anything, i dont criticise them cos you like them or watever.
but when i tell you, you are always like- hes so ugly, hes a douche, or watever.
i mean to you that may seem like it, but thats not always how i see a person.
Its ok if u say it like once of something, but everytime, you always say that.
we used to be close, i dont know what happened.
you jsut started ignoring me and i had no idea what happened.
if i had done soemthign or said something that pissed you off, you never bothered to tell me.
and another thing, there is no 10 others of you.
theres only you and jas.
and you know that.
and you can say that i dont care about you and all.
but if i didnt care about you or value our friendship i wouldnt be crying so much over it.
and let alone, trying to talk to you on msn though all i get is nothing cos you're ignoring me.
and if i didnt care about you, i wouldnt be shopping and i see soemthing that you mentioned you liked before and i would think, should i get that for her cos i remember she once said she liked stuff like that.
its funny cos it makes me think, do i ever cross your mind?
have you ever thought about me or even cared about me at the least.
and you have never told me that you didnt liek that i say that and stuff.
so how the hell am i supposed to know.
im not a person who can read your mind without you telling me what you feeel or think.
and i havent been posting things on his wall.
the last post i did was like andy pandy!
there was no i loved that text or goodnite bubbs to him.
i was swearing at him to tell him to piss off!
and i dont like him!
i know im hypocritical btu i try not to be.
but has it ever crossed your mind that you could be too.
and i havent treated you liek crap.
you have!
you have no idea how many times that ive felt like some srsly fucked up piece of crap cos of you.
ive been the one trying to save our friendship and have you tried at least once?
NO! you havent!
and i do know how feeeling unspecial to someone that you thought was one in a million.
its painful and im going through that right now!
ive always thought that we were best friends!
i even felt that i was closer to you than i was to my best friend in primary who i had known for 2 years!
and honestly, i was the only one who ever tried to resolve it and save our friendship.
and if i didnt care i wouldnt bother!
and obviously i do care and you dont!
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what we could have been, 3:45 PM.
